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To the guy who disapproves
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The guy who is taking out his own self-hatred on me and others.
The guy who refuses to admit that God made him for another man.
The guy who thinks that he can judge my "lifestyle" based on one aspect of who I am.
...screw you.
Go get help.
And I mean real help.
Not a church that will only teach you to hate who you are.
Talk to me.
I'm religious. And I'm queer.
Yep, I've kissed a girl.
And you know what? That was one of the happiest moments of my life.
This is my lifestyle:
I scramble an egg for breakfast.
I sing to myself.
I sweep witch hazel across my face on a daily basis.
I dance to myself.
I regularly go to bed around 11:30 PM.
I think to myself.
Who I love has nothing to do with that.
So get help.
And until you do that...
Screw you.
And God help you.
(Note: These are my raw, unadulterated feelings. I have pity for this guy, as well, but I find his attitude toward me- having never met me- ridiculous.)
The guy who refuses to admit that God made him for another man.
The guy who thinks that he can judge my "lifestyle" based on one aspect of who I am.
...screw you.
Go get help.
And I mean real help.
Not a church that will only teach you to hate who you are.
Talk to me.
I'm religious. And I'm queer.
Yep, I've kissed a girl.
And you know what? That was one of the happiest moments of my life.
This is my lifestyle:
I scramble an egg for breakfast.
I sing to myself.
I sweep witch hazel across my face on a daily basis.
I dance to myself.
I regularly go to bed around 11:30 PM.
I think to myself.
Who I love has nothing to do with that.
So get help.
And until you do that...
Screw you.
And God help you.
(Note: These are my raw, unadulterated feelings. I have pity for this guy, as well, but I find his attitude toward me- having never met me- ridiculous.)
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What's THIS rumpus?
1 min read
Good news from the land of the roses and the thorns!
I was in a poetry slam today, hosted by the local youth advisory board, and I read In My Eyes and How Their Daddy Died before an audience of about 20.
And...
...I won! "In My Eyes" is going to be published in two local newspapers.
I was in a poetry slam today, hosted by the local youth advisory board, and I read In My Eyes and How Their Daddy Died before an audience of about 20.
And...
...I won! "In My Eyes" is going to be published in two local newspapers.
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Confessions of a Non-Slut
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Last Thursday, I made out with a friend of mine. He's gay, we were bored, and it only lasted for five seconds.
It really got me thinking, though. Here I am, teetering on the edge of 18, and where am I? Kissing gay boys and getting a release because straight boys don't look at me as someone they'd like to love. Too scared to engage with girls because I don't want to remind my family that I'm bisexual. Lost in dreams which have only the slightest hope of coming true. Listening to "The Guilty Ones" and wanting that.
When I shared with friends what I had done out of sheer boredom, the consensus was, "You're such a slut... only not." Yeah, and that's my problem. My parents didn't allow me to date until I turned 16, and almost two years later, I've never been on a real date, and I think I've been branded in the public conscious as off-limits.
What am I supposed to do? I long for intimacy with another human being who reciprocates with as much feeling as I give. Is that too much to ask?
It really got me thinking, though. Here I am, teetering on the edge of 18, and where am I? Kissing gay boys and getting a release because straight boys don't look at me as someone they'd like to love. Too scared to engage with girls because I don't want to remind my family that I'm bisexual. Lost in dreams which have only the slightest hope of coming true. Listening to "The Guilty Ones" and wanting that.
When I shared with friends what I had done out of sheer boredom, the consensus was, "You're such a slut... only not." Yeah, and that's my problem. My parents didn't allow me to date until I turned 16, and almost two years later, I've never been on a real date, and I think I've been branded in the public conscious as off-limits.
What am I supposed to do? I long for intimacy with another human being who reciprocates with as much feeling as I give. Is that too much to ask?
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I can haz blog, pleez?
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Opinions Needed: Etsy Name
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In the next year or so, I'd like to start preparing to start an Etsy shop to sell my clothing designs. I'm going to get paid for a Sakuracon costume I'm making next spring, and that'll start my Etsy fund.
My plan is to make clothes and accessories, taking clothes typically worn in a business setting and turning them on their heads for an off-beat, unique look. My issue is, I NEED A NAME.
Currently, I'm thinking KetchupSoldier, because it's strange, original and memorable, like me. ;D Do you guys think that would work with what I'm planning on making, or should I choose something different? If so, do you have any ideas?
Anything is appreciated at this point!
My plan is to make clothes and accessories, taking clothes typically worn in a business setting and turning them on their heads for an off-beat, unique look. My issue is, I NEED A NAME.
Currently, I'm thinking KetchupSoldier, because it's strange, original and memorable, like me. ;D Do you guys think that would work with what I'm planning on making, or should I choose something different? If so, do you have any ideas?
Anything is appreciated at this point!
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